~ Mou - Dikhai ~

right after my Nikkah ceremony...
as we get back home from the wedding lawn..
every other person started asking me...
You got ring in Mou-Dikhai? right?
plx show..
and i moved my hand forward..
with that elegant yet beautiful ring right in the ring finger of my left hand..
as per the traditional myths; the ring finger is the one with the vein that connects the fingers to the heart...
'wow this is so pretty, ahan! suits ur hand well ' everyone was nodding their head in admiration...
and then someone asked me...i guess one of my aunt did..
what was u expecting in Mou-Dikhai?
i stayed quiet and smiled back...
giving them the impression that i got what i wanted to have...
but the truth is..
i never wanted a ring or any other jewel in Mou-Dikhai...
not even cash...not a car..no property...nothing material...
but what i always wanted to get is something can't be seen...
neither be given nor be taken at once..
it can only be assured with the words..
reflected by the actions...
and..
proved with the time...
i wanted just three things..in return of leaving behind everything and everyone for giving him my whole life...my love, my sincerity, my loyalty...with all my heart and soul...
i wanted...
ever-increasing respect..
unbreakable trust..
and question-less loyalty...
Thats it...
Respect of me...as a person...as a human...respect of my feelings...respect of my weaknesses...my flaws...my inner-self...my designation of being a wife...respect of my decisions...my personality...respect of me as a whole...
Trust on me...on my intentions towards the family...my efforts for the family and relations...my soul....trust on my love for my other half...trust on my words...trust on my sincerity....my actions...my words...and on me as a whole...
Loyalty for me...for my love...for my relation...staying loyal to me not as a person but as a wife...as ur other half...loyalty for all his actions towards me...involving me...revolving around me...and on me as a whole..
coz i don't wish or demand or pray for anything else...EVER...
not money...not comfort...not status...nothing..
in fact these are the only things i craved for...
i looked for...
i prayed for...
the surety that i will not be disrespected...will not be insulted..or humiliated...
the guarantee that i might not be the first woman in his life but i will be the last one...his last affair...last romance...last carnal love...and after me, the other woman he'll be bowing for saying love u will only be our daughter...
the certainty that i will be trusted equally like i am expected to trust...blindly...with the assurance that i will prefer to give up my life before breaking that trust....
Yes i wanted these in Mou-Dikhai...
i always have prayed to get them...
and now my heart is in peace...and my soul is satisfied...
coz thy're filled with the hope..
hope of being at right place to seek them...
being at right place to get them :)
sooner or later...
In sha Allah O Talla...