~ inexpressible expressions ~

Every other reader of my pieces appreciate the way i express myself...
some label me with 'talented'..
some tag with lucky...
while rest call me being blessed...
but this ability of expression have never satisfied me...
in fact it always have left me thirsty...
the thirst for writing more...
the urge for getting every single feel out of me...
and it never happened!
i always found myself looking for words...the meaningful words...
looking for the vocab that have that same intensity of sentiments..
searching phrases with that same passion...which can set the soul on fire...in the similar manner that its feel can...
striving to have those exact words available that can depict the true essence of every feel...
and it never happened!
I wish i can ever write it all that beautifully..how ur eyes shine in the morning...
and the way ur eyes lit mine upon contact..when you're tired due to being post-call...
or the feeling you gave me when you hold my hand..
and it never happened!
I wish i can write about how much you mean to me...
I've been looking for you all my life...now that I've found you, it seems to perfect to be true....
but none have created those words that can express it all...
and it never happened!
sometimes i wish to have the skills to write about all the things that have their strong imprint on my soul..
I wonder if i can express every minute of detail i feel when you're around...
how you make me comfortable with you...so that i can share anything like a friend...
and it never happened!
I wish to write the expressions on your face when I'm sad...like its not me but you yourself is in pain...
and how it make me forget everything and to fall in love with you again...
I wish to be talented enough to say with the same thunder like jolting energy..
and it never happened!
all i'm juggling again is with these words...seems so small w.r.t the feelings i've...
You're my reason for happiness...
You changed me for the better....I can never forget how you took away all my pain....
Just be with me....I love you!