~.the yugenic razbliuto ~

Nothing more or less to write...
as..
nothing making sense...
nothing getting right...
yet...
nothing seems wrong..
The reminiscences of the elapsed happenings and the feeling of deja vu collectively casting its exorcism on her...
trying their best on conjuring the deadly fears by bringing back the sillage innervation...and made her go all lost...
and...defeated...once again!
her sadness that can be seen in her eyes behind the stars she put to light up the darkest, loneliest and scariest dreams...somewhat like a holocaust...or a never ending deadly black holes ..
like it is throwing the brick of fact on her face, where the bruises still hidden behind the happy go lucky mask...and making it more prone to bleed again..
with the acceptance of her pain...
that...over the period all her consistent attempts of fending them off are constantly ending in vain..
she had nothing to regret but the tacenda...
and for once she wish to revert it all...
in order to make it all right...
she wants to yell...to shout...to kill or get killed...but never to forgive....
and they said forgiveness made you light...she remembered reading it somewhere...
lie...its a lie...it can never made you light...
instead leave you burdened with all the pain and anger you decided to drown deep down in ur heart...
with the tingling prickling insane waves of pain...
knowing that the foundational brick once made to build home is now in use of sinking her body beneath the countless layers of the worldly earthly sea..
and all she can do now is an attempt...
to escape...
to ignore...
to overlook..
and to overcome...
will this work?
she don't know coz till now it haven't worked...
any other way out?
she wonders...pray?
yes i should pray...she know where to run to...to hide in...to seek peace at...
and she is again hopeful that one day she will be able to let go of all the fears..all the pain she keeps inside her...and that day she will be ready to believe in the existence of forever again!!