~ you're the only one who matters ~

Since the beginning till over the months...
I never had thought that some day I actually will have to make things clear..
clear that those things, people and longing remains no more...

I no more long for those same things...same places...same ideology for life...and same person...

completely...irreversibly...irresistibly...just over...

and now its only you Sj who's circulating in my blood...

pumping in my heart...

my very basic necessity...like oxygen...or maybe more than that...
my destined soulmate..

ONLY you...

whom i crave for...look for...long for...and wish to be with for...

even if...if ever...i'm given the chance to choose anyone for standing next to with...without giving it a single thought i'll hold your hand Sj...
my heart...my soul...my life...my thoughts...my dreams...my prayers.. no longer belong to anyone except you...

and i just can't tell you how hurtful is this to assure you that its only you now....and will be only you forever...

whatever resides in my past will always be there...i just can't erase it...despite of wanting to remove it all...its with me...

thats what made me today who i am...

i wish...anyone have invented anything to erase memories...to eradicate past...but trust me its just there...in past....have nothing to do with present or future...
I just dont know how to assure you this...i don't have the ability to cut my heart open to you so that you can see what you mean to me...what ur existence really is for me...and its only you who matters now...

all i can say is...
trust me!