It's been more than a week now..
I'm not me anymore...
This feeling, this titillation, this experience is al new...
al strange...
beautiful at one end while tragic at other...whereas bittersweet at rest of the times...
the realization of losing myself is disturbing...giving in submission of someone is scary...
resulting in qualm and reluctance..
uneasiness that what if it all won't be the same as I've always wondered...
uncertainty that what if I won't be able to fit in that puzzle to complete the picture..
fear that what if I will get fail in fulfilling their expectations..
n more importantly waking up everyday knowing I'm not going to see my mom dad n bhai's face...
this is skeptical n disheartening...
But on the other hand..the dream of being with you forever is pretty tantalizing..
the enticing thoughts of having my own family..accompanied by little feets joining us is undoubtedly alluring..
with surety that it will be your n our angel's face I'll be starting my day with...
And in between all my life flahes at the back of my mind like my mind is playing some trick of rewinding a movie and playing it on n off..bittersweet reminiscences!!
The big day is getting near n near...making me more happy...more sad...more concerned..
so I'm learning at my best.. saying goodbye to everything with the hope of never regretting on doing so..
taking all the love n memories...leaving all the fears n worries behind...
May Allah SWT be with us...today n everyday!
