....all that left unsaid...

She was crying...her head was resting against the wall..her baby felt the sadness that had surrounded her mother n started crying...she at once forgot everything n took her in her arms..hugged her tight...n started patting on her back so as to comfort her...
Unaware of the world, the words started making sense all by themselves...she thought;
   'Kbhi kbhi dil dukhanay k leay choti se baat he bht hoti hai.. Sammy waly ko shayd andaza bhi nhe hota aur apka dil buri trha se toot jata haii.. bazahir ap khamosh rehty hain mgr ander se apka dil jesy kisi toofan ki lapait main hota hai, madad k leay cheekhna chahta hai mgr pukaray bhi tou kis ko k jisay pukarna chahta hai wohi tou is toofan ki waja hota hai...
Aur shayd aesy he kisi pal main aap Allah ko he apny sb se qareeb paty ho...aur sukoon ki talash main saza aur jaza ka ikhtiyaar usy sounp dety ho... aur ye sirf mera rab he hai jo apny dukhi, rotay bilakty banday ko torta nhe, usy mayoos nhe loutata.... us se mou mor k usky ansooun ko undekha nhe krta... bilkul ek maa ki trha... aur phir wo apny banday ko rahat se nawazta hai, usy us fusoon se nikal deta hai aur wahn lay jata hai jahn usy kisi cheez ya kisi insan k honay ya na honay se koi farq nhe parta...aur insan ander bahar se us bachy ki manind pursukoon hojata hai jesy wo apni maa ki goud main ho...'
She opened her heart to Him... felt better...n said to herself...'aur main shayd abhi Allah ki talash main he hun jo mje ab tk us k bandon aur us k raweaiyon se takleef hoti hai...'
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Special day ...

*28 Dec 15*

<before 2:30'p.m>

Sleeplessness was surrounding her...she was so concerned to get up n make all the necessary arrangements on time....had to clean room, look after her baby meanwhile manage to decorate room, arrange bookeh, bake cake, place gift where planned, take shower n get ready before he arrive..

Planned to cuddle him n cut cake n refresh the best moments while talking..decided to order his favorite food in dinner..n to have it with family...spreading love..it was their day ...she was so n excited...waiting impatiently for him...to celebrate...to rejoice...

<2:45 p.m>

He came n thanked..she tired to hug but he has to take shower...

<3:05 p.m>

Served n had leftover n tea

<3:30 p.m>

 Forgot about me, cutting cake, hug, started clicking photos

<4:15 p.m>

Started forwarding photos, chatting, browsing n rest

<5:10 p.m>

Put that uncut cake back in fridge, got ready n left to pick someone

<5:45 p.m>

Stopped by the store to replace the damaged piece with perfect one.. bought 'return the favor' gift.

<6:00 p.m>

Got back home. Asked her to try it..she tried n got awkward comments... someone forgot that they had choosed her on that exact body type so that can further alter her in every way possible..she changed n get into feeding the baby..

He preferred exercising over anything..

<7:00 p.m>

Done with workout. Ate noodles. Slept..

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<7:30 p.m>

Special day...

Not so special her..

Uncut cake ...

n her heart with so many cuts .......