~ sphallolalia grâce à oneirataxia ~

its been two hours n i'm feeling as helpless as dumb..

completely alexithymiac...

i'm so lost...

lost in you...

lost the ability to duende...

to express..

how in the world will i ever be able to get over this feeling...

this phenomena of drinking your aura...drop by drop...

tasting ur persona...bite by bite...

but...

leaving my soul more thirsty...more hungry...more devastated...every single time...

this feeling...aaahhh....this cant be dressed with words...

its natural...blunt... n basic nakedness is its power...

power to cast spell...n leave one hypnotized..

and if i'm given the power to speak exactly how you make me feel.....i'm afraid i'll be taken as fabulist...

but this cannot change the truth....not at all...not even a fraction of it...

and all i want now is to lose my sanity to you...

want you to hold my hand and take me to a faraway land...

where we can have our happily ever after...

no more empty returns...no more detachments...no more bounded apart-ness..

does this make sense to anyone? i guess No...

do i care? obviously No...

all i know now is letting it all flowing out...

like a stream...

making its own...pattern-less way...to its destination..you!