A sinful imposter

And the realization of the fact was breaking her inside outside..it was deadly..
how? how could it even possible?
she was confused, broken, shattered and alone..
Knowing that,
throughout these years she was in love with someone who dont really exist!!
it was nothing more than the reflection of her own thoughts..
creation of her own mind..
a sinful imposter...
whom to put blame on?
over an enchancting liar?
or,
It was her? blind enough to see it?
.........
It should be the end of story but it wasn't..
It was a new beginning..
and then she had to face another bitter truth..
while looking in the mirror she asked herself,
WHY?
why after enduring all that  endless pain, that never forgetting humiliation, I still crave for him? his attention? his companionship?
....
Her reflex laughed back at her and answered, "coz whenevr u see him, u see the relfection of ur thoughts and despite of what he really is he knew what u want to see and he showed the same. tch tch tch poor you, and u know, that reflection can only be seen in him as its somewhere underlying in the depth of the layers over him and more importantly you still need him coz he got your heart, all of it..losing him will result in losing heartbeat..and you know it dear..no heartbeat means end of life!!"
and she kept on staring herself with disgust in her eyes and shaking thoughts..
the fumes of her burning ego were trapping her..suffocating her..like a net traps a fish..leaving her immobile and hopeless...lifeless as dead...a walking dead indeed!!