Becoming Mrs Maria Umer....

*and i am dedicating this post to you SJ *

my chacha *who was my wakeel* asked:
'Maria Shaffaq Malik kia apko Muhammaed Umer Salim se Nikkah qabool hai? '
i was shivering....was so nervous and confuse..was experiencing vigorous palpitation...the concerns for the new life...new family...n him...there were hundreds of thoughts in my mind at that moment yet was numb enough to focus on a single thing...
and i nodded my head and answered with the trembling tone  'Qabool hai...' 
chacha asked again..
'Maria Shaffaq Malik kia apko Muhammaed Umer Salim se Nikkah qabool hai? 'i replied:
 'Qabool hai...' and for the last and final time, he asked:
'Maria Shaffaq Malik kia apko Muhammaed Umer Salim se Nikkah qabool hai? '
and for once n for al i said:
 'Qabool hai!! '

and i was declared as wife of Muhammad Umer Salim...
but doing that sign on Nikkahnama and saying this Qabool hai are not the signs of owning this title...
being declared as Mrs Maria Umer and becoming Mrs Maria Umer is entirely different...
how?
let me tell u..
becoming Mrs Maria Umer is my story...little yet life changing journey..

the day i was informed about ur proposal, i was told that 'He is a sober, religious and nice person'..
then after my parents get back from his place..they have a very positive opinion about him..
it was:
'Beta that guy is more like one who cares for family. for her sisters. seems pretty decent and is into religion as well. we found him overall good but the decision is totally up to u. if u want to meet or talk before deciding anything u can n be sure ur decision will be the final thing. no pressure nothing. '
and right then after 5 days he came to meet me..
and that was the first time i felt maybe we're supposed to meet one two or a few wrong people before meeting the right one so when we finally meet the right one, we'll know how to be grateful for it...
till today i haven't said it SJ...But at the verge of ending this year and beginning a new one with u, i would like to say it all that i might not be able to say right in front of u..
u knw SJ...at the very first glimpse..the thing that caught my eyes was the mehraab of sujood at ur forehead...right above ur kind eyes...i've always heard true beauty cannot be seen but found within the soul...and i can say that yes SJ i looked deep into ur soul..it's the soul behind the eyes...ur eyes..ur kind eyes..beautified by the glorious sign of sujood...do i need any other sign of ur beauty? No m not sinister to call it a mark coz for me its a glorious gift by Allah to His followers..the pious ones :) ...it was over whelming SJ..
and ur soft healing tone...something new, something sweet...that was lifting me off my feet..
and ur soft healing tone...something new, something sweet...that was lifting me off my feet..
i told you that my past has darkness...i dont have regrets but u should be aware of it...and the way u responded...with kindness, love, care n concern...it reflects the pureness of ur soul SJ..and i never had felt that much peace in my heart...
and from Qabool hai till this moment..many things have changed..
right in the middle of most chaotic phase...u relived me SJ...ur kind eyes...ur soothing words...thy acted like a magical ointment...and i felt live again...
SJ u made me believe there is someone waiting to show, how true love is meant to go. Willing to fight for me & hold on tight...and never let me fall prey of this cruel world..who know how to love me, respect me and treat me right...
u're like the ocean SJ..pretty enough on the surface, but when one dive down into ur depths thy'll find beauty most people never see..and i count myself in those few lucky ones who actually made it there :)
some people have such a beautiful spirit...like urs..
you changed my mind..my heart..that was so scared of implanting seeds of love again..but made me believe in the beauty of a pure soul, a pure heart and a pure love that is putted in by Allah SWT Himself...
and now whenever i think about u, I can't help but smile *blush*
and when I smile, people think I've done something wrong or am up to something lol :P Life is funny that way..credit goes to u ;)
and while being with u when I see ur smile it makes me smile... :) especially when i know i m the one that put it there :) *i guess*
and SJ my heart know it very well,
that right now this new relation may be "something" but I can see it becoming "everything" very soon <3 In sha Allah :)
and I do know that, each day, you mean a little bit more to me.. more mine than before...
I will be forever grateful to Allah SWT for choosing me to become Mrs Maria Umer..
being wife of the one with the love for her that shines from his heart n for the beautiful glow of his soul which dignifies how loving n humble person my SJ is... :)
*proud and contended*
May Allah keep us en-wrapped in His blessings..today n every coming day..ameen :)