“Those true eyes too pure and too honest in aught to disguise the sweet soul shining through them.”
― Owen Meredith
Above line was quoted by one of my friend while we were arguing about the existence of 'love at first sight'. I used to agree with the Bernard Shaw's statement that 'love at first sight is little foolishness but a lot of curiosity' but she said it is the feeling like you’ve found the one you’re looking for and realizing this with the shine in your eyes will made him/her go breathless too. I asked, ‘you mean to say we only can love a person at first sight? She replied, ‘NO. It can be a person, a place, a thing or even something u can’t explain’. Meanwhile I was thinking about the ways it is defended by its believers that always made me wonder whether it’s true or make-believe approach? Or just a mental condition where something’s or someone’s charisma enchant you that you’re unable to resist?
So I started recalling my past and discussing the moments with her, when I saw something or someone for the first time and felt lost. Getting back and back in the deep ocean of recollections, I stopped at the memory of my first love, I guess. It was my doll house. I still remember the day I was passing by a toys shop and it was on the display. Oh My God it was like a dream house to me. I get back home, told my mom dad about it and started begging for it and I was so stubborn that I didn’t stop pleading until I get that. Was it my first love? If anyone had asked me then, then definitely that my answer would be YES. But it was a matter of few months I get bored of it. Can anyone get bore from his/her first love? Asking myself and denying that it wasn’t my love, in fact it was just a fascinating toy!
Hmmthen was Kate Winslet my first love? She’s pretty like a princess and I was impressed by her when I saw her performance in the movie ‘Titanic’. Still whenever I saw that movie she leaves me with an overwhelming feeling of falling in love with her. But do I care enough about watching her in other movies? According to the definitions, Love is to think about and to keep on wanting to look at someone you love. So my answer is a big ‘NO’.
What is my first love then? My dogs? Yeah I accept I care for them, like to be with them, they’re fun to be around. The moment I saw them when my brother gifted me those pets, I was excited! Not breathless! They were cute like clouds (since they both are white :) ) soft as teddies, witty as Chuck Norris, playful as a baby and we soon became best friend. Does this make them my first love? Let me think. At times I get irritated by their playfulness, they annoy a lot by creating mess everywhere, start barking loud while I’m in between a conversation on call that pissed me off and I often plan to kick them out. This shouldn’t be the love.
I concluded it all and firmly admitted in front of her with the rock-hard confidence, ‘I’m sure I have not loved anyone or anything at the first sight dear. If it do exist then why I haven’t experienced it yet? Can you explain it to me?’ She stared at me get closer and asked weirdly, ‘What was the first thing you saw?’ I said, ‘when?’ She keeps on looking to my eyes and said in the mysterious tone, ‘since you remember. The very first sight you remember. What was it? I got blank for a moment and suddenly something flashed back. My very first memory reflected in my mind. The one for which I feel blessed and lucky to have. The one that made me who am I today. The one with which I can never get annoy, irritated, pissed off. The one I can never forget and will never stop needing it. The one I do care about every single moment. Yes it was the memory of my first love. The love I fell for at the very first sight. How can I forget the very first sensual touch of trembling hands? The very first shaky voice I heard, ‘that’s my girl, my little princess’.
My shoulders dropped down for once and then they get mounted again with pride. She was observing it all. She passed me a smiled and asked again, ‘Do you still believe that love at first sight doesn’t exist?’
I replied with tears in my eyes but a glowing smile on my face, ‘It does!’
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